“That’s because the school’s hopes are resting entirely on your shoulders this year.”

My friend from the Central Coast is staying over tonight. At some stage earlier tonight my twin sister and I were talking with her about school and our planned (or unplanned…) futures when I brought up how I still didn’t know what I want to do so I’ll be the one most likely to fail.

“Yeah, but you’ll still get an amazing ATAR so you’ll be able to do whatever you want anyway.” was my twin sister’s nonchalant reply. I looked doubtful and explained to my friend that the expectation to do as well as my older sister did is always there.

“What did [my older sister] get?” my friend asked.

“95 point something,” my twin sister and I replied in unison.

I explained how I don’t want to let down my teachers (especially my mentor who has basically told me what ATAR she is expecting me to get) and everyone else, and how they all expect me to get a similar ATAR to my older sister. My twin sister’s matter-of-fact reply was the quote in the title of this post.

So… excuse me while I dig a hole to the centre of the earth and reside there for the rest of my life because the physical pressure of the entire world above me will be less than the metaphorical pressure I’m under right now.